It seems with the world economy broken I couldn't have picked a worse time to quit my job and chase a dream. All I wanted to do since I left school was draw. For the past 5 or 6 months I put my head down and went at like nothing before and now it seems it might have been for nothing. Illustrative jobs seem few and far between and I don't have endless amounts of savings to ride this creative train with.

I've considered going back to study, and picking up some 3D skills or anything else to make me more employable but I can't put aside the terrible fear that should I go ahead and do it that I still might not get a job at the end of it all. This would leave me broke and with skills (if the current economic conditions continue) not in very high demand. I would also immagine competion for any of the positions I would be seeking would be incredibly fierce.

Even some of my friends seem to be losing their jobs and they are working in fields I wouldn't have thought would be effected by the big blow out. So perhaps I should just grab a normal everyday job once again at the very least until this crazy time passes. Because after all the work I've done for apparently no reason I feel like I've broken my brain. Feeling disheartened after hard effort is the opposite of what I was going for

Just trying to sort my head out and hopefully getting my thoughts down will assist.